Make the Noise.

 

Self Released , Digital on Moathouse records July 10 2015

All songs written by Roger Lima for Moat House Music ASCAP

Except *Petrograd by Lance Hahn

 

DON’T MAKE ME
Another day, lacking some definition
Can anyone remind me what were my intentions
Some people say, it's best to be dependent
Much easier to just lay low and stay suspended
Night after night, what i'm feeling ain't right
But i'm too lame to fight it anymore
There's too much stop and go
Never stay with the flow
Can we just hang it up or
Chalk it up to bad luck i'm asking
Don't make me stop what i'm searching for
Don't make me quit holding out for more
Don't make me stop looking for a reason
Just help me stand up and keep believing
Its right as rain, maybe that's your impression
But what it's done to me has
Pushed me in regression
I’ve giving up, settled for second best and
Turned my back on any faith in people spending
Night after night, what i'm feeling ain't right
But i'm too sick to fight it anymore
There's too much "i don't know"
Should i stay should i go
Can we just hang it up and
Chalk it up to bad luck i'm asking

 

ON THE WAY TO GET TO YOU
I sat around much more today
I'm motivated but i really wanna stop
Cause i know i'm full of my own shit
I'm hypocritical and i can't help it
I'm in a race and i keep on running
Didn't expect when i tripped something
Burning and turning, living and learning
I didn't expect to feel
Anything even remotely real
Stretch and contracting, reflex reacting
What i put myself thru
On the way to get to you
I know there's not much more to say
I'll filibuster but i really wanna stop
Cause i know i'm wasting my own breath
Much too lazy to fake my own death
So help me find out the easiest way
To waste away all the moments today
I always stumble on my own distractions
And the guest list says Murphy plus one
Life goes on

 

WHAT YOU’RE SEEKING
So now the past is gone
Living ceases, fall to pieces
I thought i was someone
Empty spaces frozen faces
How can i just go on?
Parts of me have hit the ending now
I'll make it thru somehow without a doubt
Cause i still know what's right
More than anyone just spend another night
Hoping maybe i can burn out all those lights
That may be blinding me, so bright that
I can't see who i'm supposed to be
Go now and run away
Self extraction, chain reaction
Look for another day
Watch the warming glow of fiction
Time tends to waste away
Gotta find my inspiration now
And make it thru somehow without a doubt
Don’t stare into the sun, same goes for everyone
Cause what you’re seeking’s not there,

it’s not there
Cause i still know what's right

more than anyone And spend another night hoping maybe i can Find my strength and fight

what's been blinding me
And burn out all those lights, so bright that
I can't see who i'm supposed to be

 

HOW TO LOSE YOURSELF
Calling for an even number, i need some reality
Looking for some sanity
Paved the way and i didn't wonder
Whatever more could ever be

what adventures I might see

if i gave the best of me
It's not so hard to understand
No one wants to feel they don't live
Up to their own standards
It happens time and time again
I get this feeling like i won't quite
Have the final answers, time and time again
Looking for a level surface,

somewhere i can be me
Take me back to my old street
I'll pretend i'm starting over
Find a way to plant my feet
And then chase down all my dreams
And just give the best of me
In the spotlite i’ll confess
Yeah i’m just like you and don’t live
Up to my own standards
Here it comes around again
I get this feeling like i won’t quite
Have the final answers, time and time again
In the spotlight i'll confess
I don’t want to make amends
I’ll be happy with this mess
Time and time again

 

MY SILVER PLATTER
Pick me up i'm feeling down
What i'm looking for
In this world it can't be found
Stay with me, you make me stronger
Out here on my own
I don't think i'd last much longer
We should be somewhere

we feel complete
And no one complains and where
Nothing stays the same
And we all know that we're not alone
Like a living breathing dream
Simply amazing
Take me to a higher ground
Tell me you'll be here
All the years and i'll stick around
I need my friends to live forever
Stockpile memories
Share the trees and be together
We should be somewhere

we feel complete
And no one complains and where
Nothing fades away
And we all know that we're not alone
Like a living breathing dream
Simply amazing

I MIGHT EXPLODE
It's not adding up, i'm at the end
All the faith is gone again
I don't have a clue, i can't comprehend
So i'm asking...
Show me what i'm doing wrong
I've been defeated for too long
I don't like to cheat or

take the easy road
But if something doesn't change
I might explode
Cause it's made to last,

it's no heart attack
And there's no more turning back
Is what's best for you is left in the past?
I'm just asking...
Show me what i'm doing wrong
Its been depressing for too long
I don't like to cheat or

take the easy road
But if something doesn't change
I might explode
I might explode
No bail out or a helping hand
Just break out and believe again
Explode.

VAST MINORITY
I must be one of just a dozen voices
To have had a single chance
To make some better choices
I’m just like them
My promise was squandered
Spent my night and weeks alone
Prematurely plastered
I can’t tell you i never saw this coming
Feeling born against the grain
A life full of just stress and strain
Seems every time i keep

myself from drowning
I feel the weight and pull of all the bags
I keep around me
And it’s ok and it’s alright
Living like a satellite and
Never letting out what’s inside
I’m just a man and the best plan
Is to avoid the wreck and i guess
Be set for whatever happens next
Expecting what we don’t expect
I’m hanging on to my initial preference
To stay away from the machine
Deny my dependence
It’s so unclear what my future’s holding
What i believe seems obsolete
Windows of ‘o’ are closing
I‘ll celebrate the small victories of
Favored posts and faded tees
A roladex of memories
I’m proud to be
Part of a vast minority

S’S B-DAY
Go back to yesterday, hold my self up
To a higher standard
Take back the words i said

still ringing in my head
I never meant to let you down
I'll tell you honestly

the same rings true for me
With every passing year

i feel the growing fear
Someday i won't be around
Don't blame me, it's not my fault
What's been happening

happens to us all
So don't blame me

you're just growing up
And  every moment counts
And there’s not enough
Wishing there was a way

to go back to yesterday
And hold myself up to a higher standard
A new found way to be

when you depend on me
No need to worry quite so loud
I'm not in such a hurry now
This time i think i'll start it over
Go back, relive it again
Make sure i keep from going under
Just so you know
I can't be fooled the same way twice

 

WASTE MY WORDS
When i think of what i should say
I bite my tongue and turn away
I'm holding back and i can't stand
What it does to me, so here's my plan
After everything you put me thru
Don't know what you expect me to do
I won't waste my words on you
Another place, another time
I might give in and say it’s fine
But it now it seems you're out of luck
Cause i refuse to feel this stuck
After all of the pain i've been thru
Don't know what you expect me to do
I won't waste my words on you
There's a million things i'd like to say
But you don't listen to me anyway so
I won't waste my words on you
I'll take my chance on something new
And i won't waste my time on you
The sharpest words i've got can slash
Smoke and mirrors down

and yours won't last
After everything you put me thru
Don't know what you expect me to do

SYMPTOM CHECKER
Confusion, dizziness
I don't know i'm such a mess
And every day is just a waste of time but i'm fine
It must be all inside my mind
Maybe this isn't true
Maybe there's no me and you and
Every day is just a waste of time well that's fine
Can't say it takes me by surprise
Let me summarize
Yeah sometimes i know it's just me
Staring out the window past the corner
But i can see who i wished i

turned out to be
Confusion, dizziness
Every day i'm more depressed, Sick of
Feeling camped out on my own

with no home
This can’t be cured while i’m alone
Maybe this isn’t fake
And there’s no pills i can take
And everyday is closer to my time
Well thats fine,

i'll run in circles in my mind
And it's no surprise
And sometime i know it's just me
Staring thru the ceiling

at the sunlight and
Wondering exactly

who i’m supposed to be

RIGHT HERE RIGHT NOW
Pay no mind of what's to come
Easy to say, easily done
Take each moment one by one
Hold your ground and take a stand
Lift yourself by your own hands
Don't wait on your so called friends
Don't want an explanation
Why there's no motivation
Feels like distractions all i see
I won't let those pitfalls bury me
I would rather be right here right now
With my head out of those clouds
I would rather be right here right now
Making every second

count for something
Nothing lived, nothing learned
Take a step and take your turn
Fly too close and maybe burn
Take a leap, a leap of faith
Makes no sense to hesitate
Nothing good comes to those who wait
You'll need stories when your old
What you touch just might turn to gold
From that couch you'll never know
Let’s find out how
This chapter unfolds
Back then i always used to say
I'd like to live without mistakes
But fucking up is a part of life
And sitting stagnant won't suffice
So take the chance and take a hit
You've only got one life to live
(you’re missing out again
trapped in tiny screens)

PETROGRAD
 Sometimes i wanna go back
Sometimes to the beginning
Sometimes i wouldn't change a thing
Don't wanna won't be sad
Like the sailors of Petrograd
I just don't want to need to feel that way
Sometimes the things i've done
It seems like martyrdom
Sometimes i wouldn't change a thing


Music and Lyrics by ROGER LIMA
(Except “Petrograd” by Lance Hahn)
     2015 Moat House Music ASCAP